My BIG soal serching question...

Selfish taker wakes up - wants to help change World


I was awake at 2 in the morning, failing miserably to get to sleep. This has been happening a fair bit over the last year or so, not all the time but often and its the same question that keeps me awake. Why am I not completely happy?

Missing


Well,  I should be. I have all the reasons to be - beautiful wife, awesome kids, four great businesses, comfortable home, a passionate skill in photography. All the right things. Then what is missing???

It dawned on me just the other night whilst lying awake. I was bought up as a survivor. One of many children in our household that roughed through the turmoil of a broken marriage. Step-brothers and sisters, step-mums and dads. No family normality, somewhat violent and a whole lot missing. I had to eat fast or I went hungry.

Taking


After leaving  home at the young age of thirteen I had to survive again but in a different space. I had to make money to pay for my bus fair to school and to by my lunches. I really learnt how to take and to look after myself every day. I learnt some more of this in the Army and then in my first years in business. I grew more survival skills whilst travelling the world for five years, until I ended up settling  in New Zealand.

Contribution


Thankfully I have grown up with a sense of morality, a strong sense of right and wrong. I have a good heart but over time I have learnt to take - to think firstly of myself. I don't blame myself for this, its only natural given the path my life has taken and the choices I have made, but I understand now that this is the cause of what is missing. Contribution.

Help


I need a cause that is bigger than me, that will allow me to help make the world a slightly better place. So this is where I need your help. Just one more take from me.

Firstly, I lack inspirational ideas - not sure what to do, how to help. What cause to contribute to. Please share with me your thoughts and the thoughts of all those you know.

Secondly, I know that I am not the only person who ponders this question. I know there are many takers out there feeling the same way I do. Something missing in their lives. If this is you, or you know someone, then please spread this word.

Reply or comment if you want to help. Thanks...